Everything
seems lost.
Like a fog
it settles
around me.
Thick and unforgiving
making my sight
blurry
Dont know which
path I've taken
Don't remember
the path I had taken
Reality and Fantasy
Dream and Nightmare
Dont know
one from other
Merging into each other
like a
complicated maze
from which the
key is hidden from me
to its escape
Like a black hole
this feeling
sucks me in
till there is no more to take
and no more to give.

Black and white
Evil and good,
The 2 sides of
The same coin.
One cannot exist without the other
Because without one
The other would
Lose its value.

Angel and Devil
One makes the other.
If there was no Devil
Would anyone consider
The angel good?!
The Devil's presence is what makes
The presence of an Angel important.

If there was no sadness
Would people ever
Value happiness.

So,
Black and white
Evil and good
The 2 sides of the same coin.

Her Fire

The fire in her, burned
Bright and loud.
Her childlike laughter
Went round and round.
Toddling away she fell and slipped
She cried and screamed,
But never,
Did she stop.

As she grew,
To school she went
Teachers, rules and strict discipline
Was she taught.
Yet still no matter what
Her fire burned
Bright and loud.

As she grew,
She gained experiences,
Met new people
And experienced different situations.
She travelled the,
Hard and rough road
Complaining sometimes
Tears another,
But never quitting.

Now an old woman
With family around,
The laughter of her daughter
And daughter's daughter
Went round and round.
Her fire,
Though not so bright
Or loud,
Only a little subdued
Where her family and children
Will warm their hands
Against her knowledge and experience
The lessons of life,
She learned.

So,
Her fire burned a
Little subdued.
Not so loud anymore,
Yet bright as ever.

A Warning

The clouds are thundering,
Bolts of lightning,
Like swords of warning,
The rain peltin down on us,
Like a storm.
It seems as if,
The gods themselves,
Are furious and angry,
At the path we've taken.
Like a warning,
The lightning cracks,
To scare us, but
Its too late.
We've started and now can't turn back.
Our hearts are at stake now,
And we'd rather take hell, together
Than be apart in heaven.
Like a warning sign,
That we do not heed,
We go on and on,
Knowing the path will be rough,
But also knowing,
That no matter what,
We'll always be together
Forever.

I Want

To kill,
To murder,
To torture you
I want.

To punch,
To fight,
To kick your ass,
I want.

Yes, I do want this
Because I hate you.
With every fiber of my being

I want,
To punish you
For every tear,
Every fear,
Every doubt
That  I have about myself,
I want
To punish you.

Its suffocating
To keep it inside,
So I write it down,
That I want
To punish you,
For every
Single wrong that
You have dont to me
Yes, I want.

Anger

It simmers inside me
never blowing out,
yet never receding
like a dormant volcano it waits
for the final nail to my coffin
waits,
for me to break, waits,
for me to finally give in to it,
to finally open the door of its cage
like a balloon, its keeps blowing and blowing
till I can keep it no more
and like a balloon only
I will burst
and then, I don't think
even God itself could stop me
from controlling it back

PHOENIX

A phoenix
rises out of the ashes
that consumes her, only to be burned again
Like a phoenix, I will rise again
out of the fire that consumes me
only to be consumed by it again
submitting myself to it
because, I don't have any choice
becuase my choice was my made when I heard his name!
A drug, an antidote
Bad or good
Call it whatever you want it
I don't care
All I care, All I want is
to submit myself  fully to it
No matter the consequence
My devotion to him
is the only thing I can show
even though he is probably
unaware of even my existence
and sitting thousands of miles away
I still don't care
but like a phoenix
I will be consumed in this again and again
only to be burned again and again
but I will rise
Soon, like a phoenix.